Tuesday, January 10, 2006
wow i felt cold wind when i entered my own blog..spider webs,dust and dirts,does it reminds u of your soul that you've neglected for long? its time go back n take a look. :P

orientation's over! had fun and pondered about many things through out the week too! security,God's will,cca,n realizing many whys.

what was most important to me was the realization that God was there and He's still here. i was struggling so much last night to flee from entertaining all those thought that made my heart tick,and i asked him for help.i felt carnal, i felt that is so often that we feel insecure of our identity and maybe qualities,so we reserve ourselves.but when God sends assurance from ppl ard,praising our physical appearances,we get too high and too proud abt it.n start to unconsciously flirt with another him.went to sleep with these thoughts.

and in the morning during my time with Dad, he told me in quietness.:hey! why are u struggling so much?i know exactly how u feel and thats why i've made u e way u are.not too ugly but without the perfect kind of figure e world adores.i made u 60kg and 163 for a reason.n after that i adored my noblity so much.haz

yay,let it be this way!not too good figure,n not too pretty,then i can cross out temptations and serve u wholeheartedly!hmm! im so beautifully made.gone are the days trying hard to reach e world's standard.come are the days trying even harder!to reach God's standard.hey i tell you,when He tells you good and faithful servant!thats what i wanted u to do.that satisfaction far overweighs having a million ppl telling u u're pretty.

wonder hows nicole? :P

Soared at 1/10/2006 02:25:00 PM