let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

contentment..something that dad's been teaching me for quite some time..n i didnt realize.until now.
13...u cant say that is very well done..but neither izit badly done..is in the middle of no where! but i know clearly that it's far better than my standard.its by grace and indeed a part of the best plan.
then why wasnt i satisfied at that very moment i received it? i guess i was expecting a bigger miracle..one that is really shocking.higher faith=bigger miracle,so i guess i wasnt having enough faith..nothing's impossible for dad,but he doesnt give coz we didnt believe and ask.now i know. :)
jinqi asked me a question just now..now that shuyi and tamar are gone,izit very hard for me? .......................i didnt really know how to answer.i can let go of ppl pretty easily..but i refuse to accept a lousy reason like people are not important in my life.i enjoy being with ppl,i enjoy having ppl laughing at my not funny jokes and still accept me though i have millions ugly actions :)
i've been reading many people's blogs,they do lead me deeper into their hearts,their concerns and their heart felt thoughts.i enjoy understanding people,and knowing more about them,it feels good.just like how i like to be understood.
i haven been receiving your love letters,or have i not been opening them daily?beginning to feel empty,pls fill me again,with the exact thing that i need.
suddenly this verse came into my mind:these people honour me with their lips but their hearts are far away from me..something like this.how often,that we can speak endlessly about God's goodness and His grace when our hearts are heardened? how often that we jump and dance before him,lift our hands and worship him but in our hearts we blocked him out? let expressions not be a routine or habit,but comes from the overflowing love and joy we experience.
it feels great to be reminded of such things in e midst of a busy day..so is always good to meditate on the word.:)
im starting to enjoy blogging and journaling,it feels good to read my past entries,which once again remind me of his grace and faithfulness at every stage of my life.i truly wanna be more thankful.coz only a thankful heart can see blessings in life,through every single incident,no matter how minor and insignificant,a thankful heart can always find something to be thankful about.i want my heart to be that.i want my gratitude list to go on and on..i want my blessings bottle be filled with stars..i want my life to exhibit thankfulness.
thankful for each and every friend in my life,every conversation,every word of concern,encouragement,sacarsm,correction or just a simple hi.every act of love,every help given,every touch and every gift.let every stage of my life be marked with thankfulness.amen.:)
still in love with corrinne may songs..
[i can be free,i can be free from this place]
[help me to see,everything falls into place]
[i promise you,the answer will come.hold on to patience and watch for the sign]
[i will be watching over every beat of your heart]
ok i've became very draggy...shall go help my mum with the laundry.i love my mum :)

Soared at 2/12/2006 08:47:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

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