Sunday, February 19, 2006
at the moment gwen and sherilyn decided to walk down the stairs and make that decision,my deal of 10 ppl to God= 27 bucks pink skirt was gone.its really more than the number of converts,is seeing ur beloved friend knowing the same God as you do,is hearing the sound of celebration in heaven,is knowing that dad's smiling with tears seeing his children come back to Him.the skirt is nothing compared to the souls that God treasure so much..so they are not equivalent! and so i've got to think of another way to crave for that skirt.haha

and gwen and sherilyn! you never know how moved i was seeing the both of you being touched by God,courageously walked down to receive him,and convictedly telling me you wanna come again next week,the joy is just explosive! your humility before dad was so encouraging and i really thank God for you!
hey gwen,God has knitted you to be fun loving,to treasure relationships,to have this just nice height,to possess this sexy figure,to enjoy painting and to be just you.He never make mistakes and he adores the way you are.you know? when you were down and sad,im certain he felt even more heart broken,he teared with you and wept for your wound.so he sent ur sunshine into your life to show you love,care and share e burden with you.He carried you through.n i understand the dillema and maybe some fear in you! i will keep u in prayer and help u answer all e questions u may have! is my prayer that u'll not miss out anything thats in His perfect plan for you! i wann awalk this journey with you.n lastly i love you!

and hey sherilyn! i haven really known you very well till today..and im pretty convicted that God really has His plan in everything that happened! God has put in you this amazing humility when he knitted you,thats why it was such an easy decision for you to give your life to Him.you really make people feel special and im sure that God's gonna use whatever he's put in you to fulfil his perfect plan for you!i cant wait to see you again next week! am so excited to walk this journey together with you and gwen,and to discover the special plans He has for the unique you.i wanna love you like how God loves you..that kind of unconditional love.help me along! :)

ok n i wanna share about another great part of the day! thats my first time to carls juniors.oh my you shld have seen the famous star burger,or maybe you've already seen it..is the cheapest yet is like gigantic! it was tiring having to chew very long and opening my mouth real big to take every bite.oh my oh my oh my! n you know whats e worse thing? i had dinner again when i reached home.thank God for his providence,i never lack food for survival.n this time he even pampered me with double share in a single meal.haha

okay im done with the great part of today.now is confession time.haz sinned so much when i reached home. i reached home half an hour later than what i told my mum,n i guess it wasnt the first time.i always tried to come home for dinner during weeks i dont have meeting,coz my mum always black face when i tell her i have meeting on saturdays.but i always end up making her even more frustrated.when she just shot at me all the sacarsm and scoldings at the moment i stepped into the house,i didnt remember how i felt..mixed feelings basically..n i kept quiet and for no reason teared while eating.so that made her even more angry.n then once again i chose to ignore my sis when she talked to me.and many many thoughts that went through my mind that made me feel so so carnal.indeed it takes courage and His strength to love unconditionally.

i dont know how to continue..so i shall stop here. :)

Soared at 2/19/2006 12:10:00 AM