let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Monday, February 06, 2006

you keep me flying
you keep me smiling
you keep me safe in the crazy world
you understand me
embrace my fragility
you keep me safe in a crazy world

crazy crazy the world's crazy! wonder how people actually live without God.
dont they have to constantly struggle with insecurities alone, those emptiness that nothing seems to fill,and chase after endless temporary satisfactions? arent they tired? my friend once told me,shes not who we see her as.will it be different if she knows about my dad too?

read the inspiring story for this month."my son died for you! dont you care?!" it keeps ringing in my mind. yes those who come to humour God, those who cant bother and those who refuse to humble down to believe,Jesus died for them.simple as that.

my thoughts are random,yeah so random.i think and ponder about so many things about people, about life, abt my destination.i wanna stop the guessing game,i shall just live a day at a time. is tired to keep guessing God's will even before going to Him and yield my life.yes i do want to surrender my life.what can the world offer thats more attractive than this? gimme a better bargain and i'll follow you.but maybe you never will.

this year 3 important ppl are leaving from my life,or rather 4.i do still get to see them,but we'll be further away.God set a different path for each of us,doing diff things in life,serving Him in diff ways,but we are all heading for the same direction.n we'll meet at the end.cant wait for that reunion.tamar shuyi angel n xuanting,you'll never know how big an impact you've made in my life.every smile u helped to create and every act that help me to grow a little bit more..n now i realize,all along am next to angels in disguise.love you all so much.

have been thinking of the many good friends i've made in school.gwen,nicole,yunjun,crys,crystabel,meizhen,fangxuan,peiyi,soo hui and many others.i wanna spend so much more time with them, i wanna learn so much more from their lives, and most importantly i want to share the unconditional love and grace i received from dad with them.sometimes im scared to share,coz i'm scared that our relationship will strain becoz of that.but it doesnt make sense, it just doesnt.without our dad,what else can our friendship base on that can last? just laughters and teasings? nah they arent enough.i dont wanna just be in the same clique as them,but in the same team working towards the great vision.cant believe how exciting it'll be.i dont care about the number,i just know that they are my friend and i've got the responsibility to bring them towards Dad,simply becoz they are my friend and i love them.

[If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the sky
If they gave me golden wings,
well I still couldn't fly
without you, nothing would matter]

Soared at 2/06/2006 10:07:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.