Monday, May 22, 2006
[wherever you lead me, i will go]

it came to my mind as i thought about my path..high school ministry or moving on? i've never thought about it..probably no one has ever asked me to stop doing what im doing.i have never doubted God's plan of placing me here in the high school ministry..that moulded me so so much..however i've seemed to lost that kind of passion for youth, something that i've to re-ignite.n yes its back again! the more i think, the more im convicted that people should give their best times of their lives in serving God..thats their youth.

i cant say convictedly that i've never regretted a single moment of my decision to follow Him at a young age and giving my youth to God..sometimes im tempted to just peep at the world and look at things out there, to try life without God,but that thought scares me..i cant imagine my life without Him.

'for i know my plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you'

how can one possibly choose to settle on the second best?

i feel great joy today. i chose to flee from temptation,and God blessed me back multiplied. i had laughters, a cup of bubble tea, a great conversation with jamie and a heart overflowing with the joy of victory in God. yayness.

the talk with jamie made my heart palpitate and cant rest, i've got back that compassion for people..that passion to live up to the fundamental calling of my purpose on this earth..n i see many pictures, imagined many lives being changed started to have real dreams for my 2 years in jc.

i like what jamie says: we do not receive dreams without given the power to make them come true.

yes i will keep these dreams in the corners of my heart..n live everyday as a step closer to my these dreams, and when they finally come true,then i will know that is God and not merely human strength.

jamie! remember i told u i have things to tell you? haha but i forgot alot of it..but i wanna tell u i admire that desire on you to still keep your dreams of being a princess..those little girl dreams..im so glad your soul is still so intimately connected to Dad's that no efficiency of this world can distort that perfect picture of being God's little girl.keep those dreams within you! those desires for intimate relationships and desires to be fought for.im with you all the way as you keep to your commitment of giving the best of you to your future spouse.that man will be the most blessed man of this earth.it always inspires me as i see how you always give your bestest in all aspects of your life..that spirit of excellence in studies,that heart that naturally goes out to people, that mouth that unashamedly speak of God's love and grace..im so thankful to have met you at this juncture of my life..and i believe it'll not just be that normal friendship that everyone else are building..but a special one bonded by OUR special ONE.

i cant wait for our date!the 3 of us.. when we just talk about our lives,our walk with DAD..and our little girl princess dreams.:)

today i had a whole new perspective about this eyecandy thingy..at first am really against it..coz i felt that its so superficial! but today it dawned upon me that we humans are actually created to adore beauty! we are attracted to beautiful things..we are captivated when we see babies with that flawless skin and blameless hearts..we are filled with awe when we admire the beauty of nature, and often amazed at beautiful things humans do to each other..yes..beauty is so essential to this world.
and God is just the same, He adores beauty..beauty is so important to Him.thats why he created nature for our delight..thats why He created the sky..thats why he created us.we are so beautiful to Him, He adores us and delights in us..he desires to be pursued by us,he loves it when we come before Him as little children,to sing and dance around him with innocence.to Him..we are all captivating..no matter how sinful,we are beautiful in His eyes..isnt that enough?

so if you are blessed with good looks,praise God! if you are not satisfied with your face, your body or anything about you,you have something better.we are all beautiful,just that we have yet to discover.let your beauty lie on who you truly are inside :)

gp exam tmr..i dont feel prepared..and thats when dependence on Him comes..how assuring. :)

[when life gets too overwhelming
when your troubles and cares cant be counted
look at the sky
and let it remind you how big our God is.]

was stunned when i read this on jamie's card for me..the heavens declare the glory of God, the skies proclaim the work of his hands.-psalms19:1

phew..long long entry again..i dont feel like sleeping..i suddenly feel great burden for certain people..people whom i know are far away..who feel helpless..we feel stubborn..who are waiting to be asked and invited..yeah..my prayers goes out to all of you tonight.

i seem to have never ending things to say but i guess is time to get some rest..i just realized that my blog's no longer one that i try to be as funny as i can as i describe the day's happenings..and try to make it appealling to be read..but it's filled with my thoughts..yah..my inner world..a place that you'll see my flaws and my weaknesses,but also a place that you'll get to know the grace and power of our God..coz never in my life has He forsaken me..im weak, therefore am made strong.
now i understand: blessed are the weak in heart.

ok i better go! mixed feeling right now...thankfulness, vulnerability,confusion,joy,and desires...the only answer is Him.

[there are a thousand reasons why i should give up, but im stubborn in the things i believe]- everything in its time, corrinne may

Soared at 5/22/2006 08:31:00 PM