Sunday, June 04, 2006
the title for this is post is all the random thoughts! yup have been thinking..evaluating and realizing truths...its great to think! i love thinking.haha

the teaching today went well..felt wierd at first,to be teaching fellow uls,and having the leader sitting there and listening!it took lotsa security and confidence in God..very thankful..i got to share my heart out..many things that im convicted in..and very thankful that the team is very supportive!really..with all of them older than me in age,yet able to nod and respond,indeed its divine authority.

today as i taught,i was once again convicted of the privilege to teach, not just any other subject, but the word,the word that gives people life and transforms lives..since when is anyone worthy to teach the word?yet we sinners are given the authority to do so,and it dawned upon me that thats exactly how highly God thinks of us! your grace still amazes me..

and i was thinking about my role as a unit leader..i've been stuck in this position for 2 plus years? this is my third year..n i started to question myself, why am i not moving on?i mean everything seems to have remained in a certain level that the cycle just repeats year after year.n i guess this level is the most dangerous one..that one gets so used to doing the same things,and stop growing..depriving my sheep from reaching their very best.how sinful! n i remember one of my bdae wishes was to let 18 be a milestone for my life,that God will do smthing special in me and through me.n this shall be the year that i break away from this position,oh well..i dont care about what L am i..but size is the most tangible way to measure growth isnt it?stagnancy wont last for long..coz the heart slowly slips away..n i wont allow that to happen in my life! jc, so what?more temptations=more growth right? let this be so for my life. amen :)

went to study with ting after meeting..the HIGH TEA was enjoyable! and we were saying that what if Jesus comes back like soon? like in 10 years time? 5 years time? 2 years time? or even tmr! i wonder how many of us are ready to meet Him! at the rate that we're going,how are we ever gonna save the world? n we still go through silly things like spiritual dryness and doubts and all..ps jeff said yesterday that we're living at the end of the last times! n i often forget that i actually have great things to offer,hey winnie,put away that pride and start working..20 by next bdae..still on?

YES.

the power of words..make or break..build up or tear down.most difficult to tame, like a rudder,or a splint that causes fire,yet the most fortunate/scary thing is that we have control over it. sometimes i wonder why people use their tongue to tear down..all those sacarsm and criticism, it seems as if the purpose of their lives is to tear people down, leaving people wounded and hurt, n start to put on a false front, a front that they believe would be more acceptable to the world...yet that lie harms the soul..

wouldnt it be great that every effort one makes to serve and every caring thought one has for people are being recognized and appreciated? that people just come and say'hey thankew for that,it made a great difference'. imagine how much impact does it have on us! it will cause us to bless even more people, and build more people up. the power of words.imagine how many lives will you touch when you just go around affirming people of things they dont even realize,the joy is explosive.my tongue is a gift from God, a gift to be used to encourage and build up,i mean who doesnt like to be praised and appreciated? well..i do..when im affirmed, i will wanna do even better and even more..it doesnt take that alot of effort to just affirm smone a day does it?
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.hebrews 3:13

i was telling ting that these few weeks i've learnt to be still..to be at ease and have peace in my heart.my nature is definitely not calm, that choonie can testify! haha i worry about this worry about that...i get paranoid about every delay and every mistake..and stress myself out till it seems as if the world's gonna end soon becoz i have 3 tests to study for..hehe and now i've learnt to take a step at a time, to not worry about tmr and have complete trust in Him. it feels so good, to know that im not alone..n that i can exchange such stress with peace and all..is not about psycho-ing myself,but an exchange in the mindset.

[know God know peace
No God No peace]

many times when i hear of people being rude to their parents or grandparents..i get real angry..i understand that rebellion is a stage that everyone has to go through, when one thinks that the whole world revolves ard him/her.yup that i understand, but i cant accept them being rude! our parents work so so hard just to meet our basic needs and allow room to pamper us once in a while, yet sometimes what they get is our ignorance and heckcare attitude, that i confess..sometimes i'm so busy with my own life that i forget about my dad who's toiling alone in hk..and how my mum has to bear all those stress and all.im so scared that they dont know i really really appreciate them..n the only thing i can do to repay them is to study hard and give them the answer to all life's questions...JESUS.hey God,i haven forget..and i wanna thankew for taking care of them so so well..i see you in every happening..do it through me k :) soon!! :)

these 2 days are gonna be quite busy! many things to prepare..yet my heart is still.coz i know that there's a God.phew! i get so encouraged myself by typing all these down..haha..

i somehow miss my classmates a little..haha..looking forward to class outing too!

tonight i got to study, think of gift ideas and plan for camp! i like such exciting life,hectic but fulfilling:)

i was made to love you.

Soared at 6/04/2006 09:40:00 PM