let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Friday, June 02, 2006

joy overflows....
i was weak, and then im strong
all because of your supernatural power and love.

i felt so drained when i woke up..with no particular reason, just troubled over bring it on, over camp, over people, over my heart condition.

n immediately i know that i need strength from above, after trying so hard to make things work on my own.

n i sang so many love songs to DAD,with the whole house to myself, i felt embraced and free.i poured my heart out to Him in helplessness, and i was strngthened,there was an exchange, of mindset and perspective.my eyes were opened to seeing things in another way.

wheee!!!! yesterday i finally went swimming!!! it was good, i felt free as i stream through the water, and letting my mind rest. n i think swimming is a good way to fellowship too! just two people...it draws heart together.

then after that went to meet sandy,had lunch and shopped aroound. we talked about life, talked about things in my mind,shared our feelings, laughed at stupid things and was drawn closer to each other. i enjoy being with sandy..its comfortable to just walk in silence,and always comfortable to reveal my true self.thankew sandy for your trust and your support, you spur me on through helpless situations when i felt alone..the thought of you always assure me. thankew sandy :)

last event of the day! we went to xueting's chalet..i got so tired of laughing..thankew seili for laughing with me.i've learnt to laugh from my heart, learnt to laugh things over indtead of harbouring them in my heart, learnt to appreciate people's jokes, and learnt the art of laughing together with friends.HAHAHA

i enjoyed all the mrt trips and bus trips the most! lao da was the best,one sentence n i was down on the ground laughing. da ge was not bad too! the xiao di who keep wanting to be our da ge..he's ah beng chinese is actually not that bad..n with that retarded face..haha. and DA JIE SEILI! haha you must be laughing to yourself very happily in front of the comp...liwen!are u still sleepy? and the ultimate da jie who can kill with her eyes! hehe hopefully i can post our photos soon!

hmm i confessed somethings to Dad today..i felt so disgusted at those things..all those times that i unconsciously speak ill of another person..and unconsciously show my dao face to certain people..so thankful i have seili who trusts in our friendship enough to keep me in check, really..am so thankful for all those reminders.

these words that jesus spoke touched my heart:

God has sent me on a mission.
i have some great news for you.
God has sent me to retore and release something
and that something is you
i am here to give you back your heart and set you free.
i am furious at the enemy who did this to you, and i will fight against him.
let me comfort you
for dear one, i will bestow beauty upon you
where you have known only devastation
joy, in the places of your deep sorrow
and i will robe your heart in thankful praise
in exchange for your resignation and despair.

moving isnt it?that we have a prince who passionately loves and pursue us,who have great thought about us and gave himself for us.please dont step out of my life until you've understood this great love and grace available to you.:)

ok! i shall go do my things..long winded post again..hopefully i can meet liping later and be anointed as i meet claire!

aiyah..hungry....

Soared at 6/02/2006 12:38:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.