Saturday, June 24, 2006
oh my! i didnt know my previous entry sounded that bad.so sorry if i stumbled anyone!.thanx to everyone who tagged and messaged me.maybe thats the way God shows love to me..n yay i do feel loved. im ok! with God..nothings not ok.:)

more than those words of encouragement and concern, i realized that im not alone! thanx choonmin and nicole for identifying with me! lets have victory over it together! and thanx to those who wants to go through it with me,im very moved! thanx ting and sandy:) and thankew daniel jamie seili shiyou and passerby!

God thankew for wonderful ppl that i can depend on and trust in times of need.they are a great gift to me:)

talking about friends..its a profound topic..what the definition of friends? or rather BEST FRIENDS? when we mention best friends,who are the ppl who come into your mind? but one thing i realized..we often feel insecure in friendships..because all those messages of reality and lies that have consumed us, we have thoughts like 'oh im not good enough','im too much','im too boring'.we somehow feel that our friends think of us that way..we often feel that we are a disappointment to others, that they disapprove of us.when we replay those conversations in our mind,we regret of what was spoken, we feel in their presence that we are not enough.

we try hard to be like our friends coz we wanna win their acceptance. we put on a front that we think would please our friends,so that we can meet up to those unspoken desires of our friends.

but with such things existing in friendships,we are not able to experience the true beauty of this God-given gift of friendship.

and if i ever give you such feelings, i feel nothing of that sort towards you.please please dont think that u're a boring companion to be with! i treasure you just the way you are.i love every heart to heart talk,and every single time you open up to me.i treasure deeper things that just mere fun..because i cherish you.so my friends! thankew for being you! i wanna offer my heart to you. :)

when God gives us a friend, he is entrusting us with the care of another's heart.

i thought and thought..the solution to this is probably a secure relationship with our true Prince.when im walking securely with Him, i dont have to fear that im not good enough.when i know that there someone who accepts me unconditionally,regardless of who am i and what i've done, i can be a confident woman who can just be myself infront of people.when im secure in the most trusted God,i dont have to fear to be vulnerable.yeah its risky to open up my heart,but i dont have to fear a thing. :)

indeed, knowing that there's smone who loves you unconditionally makes a whole world of difference.

i was thinking the other day, i tried to imagine how a beautiful winnie will look like.one who's confident regardless of my outward appearance, one that whenever i open my mouth, i speak with love and kindness, one who adores the King in my life and with my life, one that gives ppl assurance with just a smile,one who listens patiently and lovingly to people's stories, one who's radiant coz of God's presence in my life,one who speaks the message of beauty that ALL WILL BE WELL,one who has compassion and mercy,one that leaves impact in ppl's lives every minute i spend with them.................

oh wow.the list is never ending..thats the image of beauty in my mind..and as i type, i know im far far away from it..but i know God will mould me, and help me to unveil the beauty He as knitted in me.because to Him, im beautiful.He thinks a world of me.

today my greatest challenge brought a friend to service! n that motivated me alot alot.the legacy of pj cannot die in my hands,it doesnt make sense to leave a school without giving it a good shake.*grins* :P

i betetr keep this short..haha im always very long-winded with my posts..

God knows how much each of us can bare.and He is doing these in our lives to prepare us for the future.

how reassuring!

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains corrinne may, free

i cant wait for the closet special service.those who come,will be greatly blessed.:)

Soared at 6/24/2006 10:45:00 PM