let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Monday, July 24, 2006

haha this is my blog's 42nd entry! remember many moths ago,it was choonmin's blog's one thousand entries celebration! oh my! i cant imgagine that on my own blog..it'll be one thousand long long winded posts yet 1000 lovely stories God wrote for me.looking forward to that day!

its always enjoyable to read my own journal entries,always wont get sick of it..can almost memorize them all!!! haha

i love what shirls said on sat..if jesus came to give rules,a list of dos and donts, i wouldnt have followed Him.

okay...i shall talk about my feelings recently...

had a great talk with angelina on tues..n we've come into a conclusion that knowing someone loves and adores u unconditionally makes a whole lot of difference..ur life will change.

today i went down to nanyang..i dont feel like sharing every emotion here..but i went home with repentance and guilt..and convicted that my spiritual life doesnt just affect myself..if it does..ok winnie u go ahead and do what u want..but nah..it affects many many around you.so winnie, if not for ur own sake, let it be for other people's sake.

we evax as well! in the school and also in coro..it just felt so so good..to be reaffirmed in my faith and seeing myself living the real normal christian life.i approached with fear and trembling, but if i chose not to..im a selfish pig.

God is still God regardless of ur response to Him.it just makes more sense each day to follow this God..one that does things that no human can compare..

ahh am feeling pretty tired nowadays..school work ministry and by the time i reach home, am usually too tired to do my work..ahh i know that this shldnt be the way coz God will strengthen me daily, thats why am not falling asleep in lessons already! that was one of my bdae wish..:)

when u are legalistic, people switch off, when u are balanced, people follow you.

God let me be word-centred and mature in you.

have been thinking of a few people..used to be my close friends.they are popular and attractive to the world..probably thats why they left God? coz they feel that the flatters they receive and emotional satisfaction can replacd God in their lives? i may not understand why, but i know that i still love and feel for them.they may be leading a happy life, n i have no right to judge and say they are wrong..but i know God's heart goes out to them..it hurts Him more than anyone else when they cant find their way..

Everyday they pass me by,
I can see it in their eye;
Empty people filled with care,
Headed who knows where.
On they go through private pain,
Living fear to fear;
Laughter hides their silent cries
Only Jesus hears.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
At the end of broken dreams,
He's the open door.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
When will we realize
People need the Lord.

We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong is right;
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life with one who's lost?
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear;
They must hear the Words of Life
Only we can share.
yah people need the Lord..though they may think they dont.

Soared at 7/24/2006 01:04:00 AM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

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(c) 2006 EMILY.