let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

have many things to do, but there was this sudden urge to wanna share my thoughts here.

was having dinner and watching tv..n suddenly these words dawned upon me, the world is dark. yes am very certain. many things are happening all around the world, we dont get to see,but get to hear of them.everytime i think about china,and its crooked values,my heart sinks.

i guess i have been too narrow-minded.what am going through now is not even a glimpse of whats really happening out there in the world.singapore is so safe,there are terrorism and war out there, and we are here complaining about the bus services and giving skeptical comments about everything.

its time to open our eyes wide to take a good look at the world.it's God heart beat, he gave away Jesus so that He can win the world back to Him.

ahh this world,though packed nicely,beneath all these beautiful wrappings,there are violence and tragedies happening everywhere. i feel so selfish all of a sudden.

maybe people will come and tell me,be more optimistic,the world is beautiful.
HAHA.its beautiful because you see miracles,u see miracles because theres a God.so the world is still ugly,but because of God,it becomes beautiful.

sometimes the thought of growing up really scares me,because i'll have to step into this world,the world filled with plague.whatever difficulties and problems we go through now are just preparations for the future.i've got to expand my mind,to not just look at my studies, and mourn,or look at my ministry and give my bare minimum.i do believe that God has big big dreams for me,n its only with me that they will be made complete.

i wanna include the world in my prayers,yah cliche,world peace.but i guess afterall,what the world needs is not peace.is Jesus.

i wanna take effort to read widely, n not just read books that i can identify with..what about books on missions? books on planting churches? books on dreaming real real big for God?

i know that when i dream, God is able to accomplish every single bit of it.if there a mere o.ooooo1 % of things my God cant do,He's not worth serving and following.so He's different from Mao.

yup these were in my mind.n i pray that it wont be just a temporal excitement of something. i pray that God will constantly remind me of His heartbeat for the world.i think i'm the most blessed girl in the world,to have such environment,such friends,such a church,such leaders,such fellow servants,such a God.

thank you God.

really.

:)

Soared at 8/13/2006 10:42:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.