Monday, August 28, 2006
haa its nearly 9pm already..n i haven had my dinner. outside the room, the atmosphere is pretty tense..somehow her voice and all the throwing seem so irritating.and all his voice saying the same old thing about working hard, manage ur time, and keep repeating what he's been saying every time he sees me..till i automatically switch off...i can nearly memorize his speeches..haa but thats bad, i dont see him often, and many times i miss him badly, when i think of his work, his lonliness,his determination and all, i always tear.he's not that young anymore, yet he's taking upon him much more than i do.am not at all close to him,and honestly, theres nothing much i can talk to him about. somehow, he has a certain impression of me that i feel very sad about. i know he doesnt have much trust in me, he expects me to fail and make mistakes..but well. i've chose to not be affected by this n keep thinking negatively. maybe things are not like that? ok winnie, stop thinking.
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦,那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你,发现了我
也别将我挽回
i like this song, but when i really run away from this world, i do hope you'll pull me back =)
ahh i cant wait for friday! doing something i really enjoy with the people i truly enjoy as well.=)
haa i have lots of things to do again.a little over whelming, and apparently i realize i cannot multi task and i do one thing pretty slowly, depends on the availability of the materials i need.so...going into another week of war..haha and another week looking forward to time with daddy everyday.
i hate to realize this, but something is eating me up. n am fighting fierce spiritual war everytime i think about it. its tiring, having to make a decision every single time, when thoughts of the dark side come occupy my thoughts.yet i guess im happy, i know He is on my side, n i know im able to overcome it because He will help me along.even as i choose to pretend on the outside, inside of me, i can feel joy from victory in these spiritual warfares, and eventually i wont have to pretend anymore. haa if u dont get what im saying, its okay..=)
love, is letting go.
is it true?
it reminds me that its exactly what God did, He love us, therefore He had to let Jesus go.....
爱你, 我认识了快乐。
nowadays i've learnt to laugh heartily, to really laugh simply because its funny, and its enjoyable. its not tiring. learn to laugh off embarassments, laugh off mistakes, laugh off criticisms, and perhaps we will be happier.=)
now my deepest cry of my heart is to grow in stature, really really wanna grow!!! it never seem enough, if drinking GROW GROW GROW milk powder can help, 10 tins i also will drink.i want to be more mature every single day, as much as i wanna love Him more each day. i wanna look into the life, and reflect it upon
the mirror, and change something of me everyday. knowing that we've grown feels good, real good.it'll remind me to be thankful, that i grow, coz of smone who loves me enough to disciplne, test and guide me along. thank you Dad.
i have certain things against 2 people in my life right now. i somehow dont agree certain things in their lives.n i pray that im not coming from a judgemnetal spirit, n i gotta overcome it soon, coz dragging on will deprive them from receiving the best from God.
oh oh you know, i read an email today, it says that there a rumour gooing around in south africa that having sex with vergins will cure aids, the younger the vergin, the more potent the cure.n you know what, a 9 months baby was being raped by 6 men. i cant even start to imagine, i feel pain within me. i wonder how Daddy feels? i wonder how much He tears when He sees all these things happening all around the world? ahh i cant take it, why isnt the good news attractive enough? why do people still respond so skeptically towards God? there are billions and billions of people out there crying out for a saviour, and yet many times we still choose to walk our own path, hiding our emptiness and silent cries,pretending that we dont hear God knocking on the doors of our hearts.will there ever be 10 valid reasons why the world doesnt need a saviour?
"you said the world doesnt need a savior,yet i hear people crying out for one everyday"-superman.
ahh winnie, stop pushing the blame on how people respond, you gotta do more, you gotta be more convicted of what you say and believe in your life.you gotta be more active and careful in leading your life. you cant do much about that baby who's far away from you, but you can do alot to people close to you right now. thats your call.
每一次
都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次
就算很受伤
也不闪泪光
我知道
我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞
飞过绝望
我隐形的翅膀......
你.=)
Soared at 8/28/2006 08:00:00 PM