Wednesday, August 23, 2006
haa! using the laopok sch laptop again!!
its wed today, studied for history test but was cancelled! didnt want to go school today, but i believe there should be a standard, like what daniel said..how can God's people called to be salt and light anyhow pon school? though i must say its really a BIG BIG waste of time..cause of the sport meet today..
maybe cant meet hannah also! n this week no other time to meet her..hai.i wasted two days this week..hai.

anyway am suppose to make today count by making it fruitful.haa, so am doing my yue du bao gao, and i haven read the book.

i think our blogs really say whats happening in our lives, we blog about things important to us, n close to our hearts, at least for me. so my blog tells about my thoughts, my life, and as i read through, i see Him in every happening, He fills my mind so much like a boyfriend, n most probably much more than that. many times,more than having other people reading, my posts are for myself.n i realize that here, i talk to myself alot, i talk to God and occasionally talk to myself. just like my daily thoughts. but why does it seem that God appear much lesser in my daily thoughts than when i sit down n deliberately hear His voice? maybe God's voice is soft and gentle, i have to quiet down my heart and my soul to listen.bt i wanna think about Him much more, till that i dont have to deliberately tune myself to God,so whenever He speaks, i can hear n not miss out a sibgle word.

i realize today that the things i treasure n things xiaoyuan treasure are very different..she treasures friendship alot, not that i dont..sometimes i get annoyed by myself by how easily i can give up certain friendship,maybe i dont mind being alone? sometimes when i just feel like talking, and sharing about nothing, i donnoe who to go to..haha have i blogged about this before already? it just came into my mind....so i end up writing in my diary to the one who really really understands. but i guess we as humans, we do need people around us to listen to us, n give us audibe reply.haha n friends are gift from God, so i will try my best to balance.

maybe it would be better this way, to not to be too attached to certain people..n to be over-dependent on people.n friendship needs so much time to build and commit,i wonder if im really able to be a good friend to people around me.i really really want to, thats why when i saw that im one of sandy's 6 closest friends, i feel very privileged and honoured. i donnoe why..=)

someimes i got to give up certain relationships in order to achieve greater things for God, it feels painful i guess? but yah, its not so hard for me to let go.n my conviction still stands,as i serve God, along the way, God will bring into my life great friends who will pur me on to continue serve Him, and will understand me when i choose to spend time doing God's work instead of hanging out with them. n yes, am very sure i have such friends around me, and im very very thankful cant wait for carls juniors with them.=)


packing up the dreams that God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through.

But we'll keep you close as always.
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong.

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them.
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end.
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

yah friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them. for the dreams God planted in us,we put friends in our hearts.

i got nothing to say already.haha tired of standing.

i need to go and make my day fruitful..=)

Soared at 8/23/2006 12:40:00 PM