let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

free will, something that God exalts the most.He loved us, sent jesus to die for us,planned a perfect plan for us,gave all his best for us, and yet, HE GAVE US FREEWILL TO CHOOSE.

it was out of so so much grace and love that he gave us freewill, to choose, if we wanna follow him.He has the best for us, yet we can choose.someone once said, then isnt God forcing us to follow Him cause once we dont choose Him,we wont have the best path. n yes! thats exactly the point! without HIm, we dont get the best, simple as that.

i had my own dreams, i had in mind what i think i would love, yet you know best what i really really love and desire.

so i choose you.

yay!! i especially came online to blog! and later i wanna write in the DMW diary! i must stop being so uncommitted to diaries and journals...coz everything is worth writing down..just whether we want to.

i haven been blogging..because i have been feeling so tired for the past 2 weeks or so..i hardly had time for my own, and sometimes cant even finish my work.i felt drained and stretched, and yet i promise i did give my best at any point of my life. though tired, i gave my very best.

i thought it was unhealthy for me to feel so tired, coz when i serve God,i should be strengthened and strong.but i learnt today that it should be my desire to want to serve God till i say..ah, am tired....and thats when i will really really depend on God.

if serving Him doesnt make me tired, then am not serving.

today i heard the story of the wooden man, the one mr koh shared before during devotions.was so moved and the truth just pang on me like i just knew Him.

who are they to give stars and dots? comments will only stick on me if they matter to me.He made me, thats why am precious, thats why am unique, and thats why what others think really dont matter.

hey winnie, stop putting ur security on other things.because they will just make u even more insecure.=) and winnie i think u are beautiful, because He made you. =)

people walk in and out of our lives, we never know who makes a mark in our hearts. so treasure every opportunity to know people better, u'll never know how beautiful it may turn out to be.

i think everyone has in their lives certain characters of God that are more evident in their lives. for me when i think about His faithfulness and grace, it always always bring tear into my eyes.i dont have much,yet i was never in lack.i didnt need people to pity me though i may not enjoy luxurious meals often or buy nice clothes, because God meets all my needs and sometimes pampers me a little too=)

wanted o write more, but now i cant think of anymore..hmm i blog more next time! n i will try my best to make my next time real real soon.=)

thank you dad for making me feel like a precious princess.im most sinful yet im most blessed. =)

Soared at 8/06/2006 12:23:00 AM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

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(c) 2006 EMILY.