let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

just did my xue shan fei hu essay which was dued nong nong ago..but it feels good to get things done=)

today i laughed hysterically at something, at that point of time,i found it funny.real funny.yet i wonder, what was my tiny little heart feeling at that moment when i laughed?i wonder what exactly went through my mind then?did i really just found it plain funny?i know there's something else.something i dread to have.something i've been praying to overcome victoriously.something i know i myself cant remove by mere human effort.

you see the depth of my heart, and you love me the same.

what else can i say?

i want to be more and more me each day.i want to become like the one God created me to be more and more.sometimes i look at myself and am puzzled, by how the world has shaped me. sometimes am not even aware of how the world can affect me in the way i think i react and behave.

longing to be that pure white lily amongst the influence of the thorns. a lily doesnt try to be like the thorns around it, it tries to influence them through its beauty, its purity.

finally finally went swimming today, alone. i swam as if i was angry n needed to vent my frustration.but somehow my heart felt peaceful,at the back of my mind are the many things i've got to study and understand before my exams, on the top of my thoughts am choosing to trust in Him and be still before Him.

i ws talking to myself the other day,not talk out loud lah...just thinking, asking myself and answering myself...i think i've been stingy with friendship.how to say...i know i can put in much more effort in every friendship,my peers, friendship with my sheep,my leaders,my sisters,my parents, my Jesus.

many time the spirit prompt me to do something sweet for certain ppl, and am so busy with my own things i just sweep them aside..and forget them.sorry friends=(

i just went for a break playing my hk cafe game.haha can never get sick of it=)

and oh!!! am so happy!!mila just showed me a website with all the games in the same collection as hk cafe!!! like how cool!!

got many other things in my mind, but am too excited to blog now. i must go play the games!! =) and thankx to everyone who tag! it makes me happy=)

oh am talking more like mila.haha

Soared at 9/21/2006 10:36:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.