let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

oh my gosh i have so much anger in me right now.
my mum asked my mei mei to go shing siong in the afternoon to help her carry some stuff home, and she refused...
cause she was using the computer.
i was like.........!!!!
such actions get me worked up easily..
but i guess i should have listened to her explain or smthing..if she ever has a valid reason.
its like she has no more exams and has a total of FOUR days to slack at home.while mum's working, she kiao kah at home.
eat sleep play.
im being a very bad sister..but am really angry.
i cant accept disrepectful behaviours..
these are basic coutesy and respect all should have right?
if she called me i at changi also dash there and help her.
haa okay exaggeration.
but i just dont understand, its like common sense.
thats why i really really cant accept rudeness towards leaders as well..
things like ignore messages,indifferent attitiude, dont pick up calls,and not accounting with the knowledge that it should be done.
i always rememebered what tamar said:defiant against leaders is like defiance against God, cause leaders are appointed by God.
but of cause as leaders we shouldnt demand for respect as well..and feel that ying gai shi zhe yang de.
appreciate such honour given.
and i really appreciate this element in mel! she always thank me for small small things over messages..
not that am insecure and need her to thank me, but i think its a good habit to always appreciate our leaders=)
now as i think back, i think in the past i was the winner of defiance man.
so so rude to my 1st 2 shepherds.haha
maybe thats why am very sensitive about such things now.
you'll never want to know what i do to them.hee
thank You for changing my life.=)

okay enough of that.
sorry for that childish anger

met up with liping today! like finally.
and i really enjoyed myself..though i wasnt able to help her much in the things she's going through right now,i just kept talking and talking.haa
i think she's grown! really..its much easier for her to just be comfortable being herself and i pray she'll discover more along the way=)

gonna prepare for meeting tmr le. and i think i should take better care of my contact lens, cause my eyes belongs to God..i must be responsible=)

i called, you answered.
and you came to my rescue.

Soared at 10/17/2006 10:47:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

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(c) 2006 EMILY.