Tuesday, October 31, 2006
finally i decided to come back to my blog and be more faithful.=)
mum's back, from hongkong..after being away for a week...
how to say...
the house seem to have put on the danger sign once again.
any actions or things said may cause the volcano to explode anytime..
dinner must be at home everyday once again..
no more "COME MY HOUSE FOR TAJ MAHAU" and no more escape till 11pm..
i sound like a havoc kid who made lotsa trouble while the adults are away..haa
to be honest i enjoyed the past one week so much more..
peaceful house, personal space, no curfew, no worries about things at home while doing ministry, no rushing off immediately after evrything..
freedom..................?
yes i really enjoy freedom much more..
restriction is not a way to discipline me, i'd like to live more freely.
but well winnie, you cant be bias.
mum's back, means theres good and healthy food for dinner every night.
it means you wont get heaty so easily
it means there'll always be milk for your cereal
it means your uniform will be ironed for you
it means ........just having your beloved mum around you.
sometimes when im really gonna explode from whatever happening at home, i just wanna have someone to listen to me complain, and stand on my side and agree with me that its really difficult to walk on thin ice at home..everything i do , everything i say i must be careful.everytime i wanna offer help, i must see if she's at the right mood, or its the right time, or if the weather's too hot for her to be good-tempered.
but oh well, once again..if this someone just agrees with me all the time and accept all my complains, izit really gonna be helpful for me?
i wonder...
true friends will tell me what i NEED to hear..
choosing to listen to what i need to hear.
haa walking on thin ice vs theres no place like home...
what exactly do i feel about this family?
"as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord."
really how much do i believe in it?
well, i know that somehow, one day, it will come to pass, and i will not let go until i see this coming to pass, until i see God fulfilling His promise.
but its no longer so easy to say when my eyes are fixed on whatever it is now...
im sounding as if my family is the worst family ever..
hey thats the biggest lie.
only i know how heavy it weighs in my heart, how often i think about the family and how much will it hurt me to see any of them not well..
aiyoh emo again....okay i shant share too much..will settle it with Him =)
in you alone, i place my trust.
kelly's flying on wed...=(
Soared at 10/31/2006 02:34:00 AM
