Sunday, November 05, 2006
my comp's terminally ill, nothing much can help i guess
i just realized something..
my walk with God is like a beginner playing mario..
its like at the beginning just learning, and identifying all the traps and all..
and slowly getting a hang of it..
yet mario always loses his life..
again and again..
yet the beginner doesnt give up
he plays over and over again cause he just wants to complete the race
however as he plays along, he starts to feel frustrated everytime he dies..
the more frustrated he is, the more frequent he dies
he's supposed to be getting better..
yet he kept failing..
even the first stage seemed so hard for him
he doesnt know how is he going to get back to the stage where he stopped.
and everytime he fails, he got to start all over again..
slowly, he gets frustrated about dying again and again..
and eventually he may stop trying one day.
its not that serious for me larh...
just that i could imagine my walk just like this..
if you dont understand it's alright. =)
the past 2 weeks were very tough for me..
it was tough cause i chose to keep it to myself
i chose to put on a front
i chose to hide
and i wasnt humble enough to share and turn away.
until when ziying told me she could feel something..
and only then i told her everything.
it's like releasing something that i've been holding on so tightly..
and never knew it could bring me such relieve just by letting go.
shant share everything here, but will tell you if you ask me! =)
so i've learnt to always make a decision to share..
though it may be hard at times..
but now i know my shepherd and leader will never be too busy for me
they dont just care about what i have to do and whether i've updated my stats.
they care about me.
thats the beauty of this family.
thankew ziying and daniel. =)
liping drew this for me! and she drew for everyone else too!
mine is LITTLE MISS GREEDY..
HAHAHA i couldnt stop laughing..she say greedy cause am always hungry
and the tummy also big like mine!! so appropriate lah..
thankew liping!
just some random photos...
overnight at my house!with mila sandy and ting.
we spent the two days laughing like we just heard the funniest joke ever.
our taj mahau game.
oh and i read from a book that taj mahau is actually a very nice hotel!! has some historical value that kind. though its like very cheap here in the game..haa
learning to bake cheese sticks from milala
oh oh my comp is slowing down,it takes 5 seconds to show one word that i type.
i can discern something..better go off soon!
update again next time.
[i couldnt walk away if i tried, cause your love is better than life.]
Soared at 11/05/2006 12:46:00 AM
