Tuesday, November 07, 2006
those feelings are fading, and i'm a happy girl=)
but they are just fading, they just wont disappear totally..
i wonder when will i be able to finally shake them off me...
today is a faithful day=)
it feels good to know that there is nothing muchg to worry about for our project.
problems pop up here and there, but when we finally walk through everything, qi shi ye bu guo shi zhe yang...things just fall into place nicely. =)
but oh my gosh, i'm becoming nervous about tmr..haha
my pw group!! hmm im actually very happy with it..and also maybe because most of the times they would agree to me..and that makes me happy.haha its very easy working with them, very committed and funny people.
just that sometimes brian is bring overly lame and anthony always overly formal in everything he says.
cecilia..HAHA donnoe how to describe also..
HAHA is it.=)
cant wait for it to be over.
meeting up with puiwah was good=)
after that was meeting daniel and camp comm meeting and then going home with ziying.
i feel so blessed to have them as my leader and shepherd..
always have so many things to learn from and spirit to be imparted.
ziying shared something with me...
she said that wherever we are born, no matter what our family backgroud
God has placed us there so that there's an opportunity to know Him.
so i was thinking about my childhood in china, how we migrated here, which was beyond my wildest dreams to come to a place i didnt even know exist.
i used to be puzzled when people ask me why my parents chose singapore..
but now i know, because God chose me.=)
in our lives, there may be things we are ashamed of, things we do not understand why.
things like parents divorce,complicated family background,not so happy childhood or not so nice growing up experiences..
they are there so that theres an
opportunity to know Him.i like realizing such things and yet again have a deeper understanding of His work in my life...and yet again thankful for all of those=)
it tickles me to know that even at this age, when i still blur blur and know nothing except eat sleep laugh cry and pee..He already has a destiny planned out for me=)
i realized that i've only given myself one proper retreat so far, which was pretty long ago..when i set up a cozy corner for it..with lots of cushions and
hot milo! i shall have my next one on friday!!! cant wait=)
was suddenly reminded of what joanne and i were discussing on saturday, about friendship.
its funny how we like to have many good friends around us and feel popular, and yet hope to be a special/unique one to our friends.
some of us can cope well with many close friends around them, but for me, i dont seem to be able to commit to so many.
no matter how close we are to our friends,sometimes we still feel insecure/inadequate and doubt if he/she really need me as a close friend in his/her life.
but if my friends feel the same way about this friendship with me, i'll feel like slapping their face and think that they are really silly to think this way, cause its like duh!
how can you not be important to me?hai humans..
or rather, hai..satan.
he's like the king of accusation..he keeps telling us
you're not good enough
you're responsible for thisyou could have been a better friend
she doesnt cherish you as much as you cherish her..she prefers the other friend, you're not that special to her after all.how many friendships/spiritual supports have collapsed cause of such thoughts!
so i always believe that only friendships build upon God will last.
He brings together people who are worlds apart in personality and all,no matter how different, their principles and vision hold them together.
i cant upload anymore pictures after putting up 2..humph!
anyway am back to my thinking mood..haha many things to reflect, many things for me to realize and apply.
教子不爱，不为教
爱子不教，不为爱
how true.
are u just gonna be a life that walks into my life and then walk out when we part?
or perhaps......theres more to it..............?
God, please take control.
Soared at 11/07/2006 11:41:00 PM
