Sunday, December 31, 2006
Joshua told the people, "Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the LORD will do amazing things among you." Joshua 3:5

Amazing things...i've always longed for and desired for.

this verse stirred my heart so much, amazing things!!!

after all the moulding and realizations, He's finally challenged me to step out and face the things i've been running away from..

my ministry.

in quantity,central a hasnt been a fruitful group.
and honestly, i've been using quality to cover up for what i've not achieved in the quantity.

i've become numbed towards setting goals and not hitting them.
failures no longer mattered as much to me cause they seemed to happen all the time.
and disbelief started to creep in,
and slowly no longer dare to ask God for great things.

i felt left behind
everyone else had fruits
everyone else had exciting stories to share
n i wont be surprised to find myself hiding in demoralization

"maybe central a is meant to be small"
"maybe im the cause of the fruitlessness"
"maybe the way of doing things was wrong"

stupid thoughts i had.

and He went a long way to convince me that pigs can (still) fly---shirls=)

first it was the camp..i have to be convinced that He can do great things through me.
then was the christmas cards..
then the talk with angelina at the expense of the chalet
and then was the shepherding with ziying that really revealed to me what i really wanna go for deep within me.

"why not you ask God for 50?"

i nearly thought ziying had a fever or smthing and mistaken me as superwoman..

but as she shared more, it made so much sense to me...
this 50 will not only mean alot to God but also myself.
i got to see for myself that im serving a real God..
and not always chasing after my own tail, tiring myself out and seeing no glory of Him.

so it was set.

with no idea how to do it but just clinging on.

didnt want to tell too many people about this breakthrough i wanna see in my ministry cause was scared if never achieve again i'll lose face..
haha stupid right?

so now everyone who knows what we're chionging for is held accountable for us!=)

so my new year resolutions!!!

1. breakthrough in ministry! 50=) not just as a number on its own..but an evident of His promises to me.

2. a balanced life. in the midst of ogl stuff, ministry and family, i want to experience God in my studies.
i wanna be consistent with my work, listen well and do my homework.
not because by mere hardwork i can achieve superb results
but because when i give 100% on my part, He promised to give 100% of His part.

so my classmates if you are reading this please hold me accountable!!
wake me up when im sleepy during lecture
subject reps chase me for my homework like chasing for money!!
and stop me if i tend to eat too much during breaks again..haha

after that dan feng show me some article about bloggers making their blogs famous by talking about some political stuff instead of themselves, and this book that help u change the world, i feel so obliged to talk about more cheem and professional stuff..

haha he does it so well but thats so not me..
it doesnt feel nice to be always conscious of what im writing and who will read it..
so just pray that my life will be alright so when i just simply talk about my life, God's name can be glorified.

wah...=)

here i am, send me.=)

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Soared at 12/31/2006 12:20:00 PM