let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Friday, January 26, 2007

i've been wanting to put this down since many many days ago..

last friday was a day of solitary..haha though i seem to be doing that very frequently, that time was well spent=)

much burden and uncertainty weighed me down.
breakthrough=doing things differently
but what exactly is doing things differently?
will this work?
will that work?

i wrote down all the matters of my heart that was weighing me down..
yet no word was spoken.
i couldnt stand it..
i wrote into the most minor stuff i could ever think off..

and in the midst of the fast and furious writing..
i caught a word on the surface of my heart..

fight.

fight???? why fight???
50=fight??!!
in my years of christianity i didnt know wanting to do greater things means to get into a fight..

haa n while i was so engrossed into thinking what will work, what wont work..
it came again..

"the Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still." exodus 14:14

oh~~~

so that was what i heart needed.
strategies are means to success,but not the basis of success.
He is.
planning for strategies is showing faith through deeds,depending fully on strategies is building castles in vain.

after the solitary,something seemed to be on track again.
yet my heart couldnt settle.
playing the piano made it worse..
more frustration, more unspoken bitterness.

i wandered around the house,wondering if i needed to talk to someone..
donnoe what i need to say...
but just talk.
but i didnt know who should i turn to...
it'll be too random to call someone up wanting to rant something yet not knowing what to say.

and on msn..just out of nowhere, jamie popped up..
we so seldom talk online...konw that shes there but really seldom talk..
and she asked "how have you been?"

my heart melted.
i know that was from God..
the only one in this whole wide world who knows exactly what im thinking, and what i may need.

so close up and so real.
i can hardly deny your goodness

have been seeing God's faithfulness in my life
witnessing for myself breakthroughs i never knew could be done so easily with Him.
i've finally be able to stand firm and choose to ignore my best friend when she pesters me during lessons...
often tempted to entertain her abit.
but will choose to go look for the toilet/sweets instead.
my best friend is losing me as a friend..
she might be on her way to look for you!
look out for her!
official farewell to my best friend:

bye, sleepy.=)

dont wanna be affected..
the more my heart tells me so,
the more my behaviour shows the opposite..
i need wisdom and a sound mind.

in the midst of the storm
through winds and the waves
you'll still be faithful
oh you'll still be faithful

when the stars refuse to shine
when time is no more
you'll still be faithful
oh you'll still be faithful
oh Lord.

when i was unfaithful, you remained faithful.
thank you for being the same you.

=)

Soared at 1/26/2007 12:04:00 AM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

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