let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

its been a week ever since i took up the challenge..
and it has become my boyfriend.
i think about it whenever im alone..
and always assuring myself"all your promises wont let go of me"

i thought about how to do it
what to do now
where to start
and just exactly how to go about doing it?

and i've got a conclusion.
i've got lots to do.
haha..lots of hardwork and dilligence..

but somehow, am ready for them.

the week was rather tiring, but filled with joy
seeing the pieces of God's puzzles coming together
and seeing God's fingerprints in everything happening
i feel so at ease..
knowing this path is cuo bu liao de.

though i can always picture myself waiting at the door for problems to come by and knock...
many many unwillingness yet waiting with expectation.
"water walkers expect problems"
i want to be a water walker.
and i know that along with problem, he'll secretly bring along some presents with him
and when i've defeated problems, the presents will come knock on my door.

like "tah tah!!!"
and then they'll pop some party poppers
and say congratulations!!
then we'll cheer together!!
"clap clap clap clap.ye su, ye su, ye su, YAY!"

then they'll tell me..somemore problems are on the way..
haha and inturn there'll be many more celebrations too!

okay i just side tracked pretty far away.

but oh well, problems will really come, cause am not giving up.=)

"if you would use someone,wont you use me."
my gosh this is like the best song i've ever heard..haha

it feels as is am exposing myself to "danger"
yet in the things i've went through, i know this area is not an issue in my life.
but why do i still have those sudden feelings of......of....fear?

oh and God showed me once again that i've grown in another area!!
its such a joy to know these growths in my own life
cause i myself know the best.
and its like "finally!" that kind of feeling..
so much relieve
so much assurence.
and this area is *drum rolls* SECURITY!!
not the close gate that security but confidence in God.
it was an area of testing since last year..
they came in so so many forms..
i cant say i've fully defeated it..
but i know im making progress.

and you know what? this was given into my life cause its essential to His 50.
discovering more...stay tuned.=)

As it is written: "I have made you a father of many nations." He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were.-romans 4:17

i am not, but he called me as though i am.
such trust.

and because you believe in me,

what can stop me from believing in you?

=)

Soared at 1/07/2007 12:23:00 AM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.