Sunday, February 04, 2007
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tears of bitterness,sense of helplessness.
feelings of disappointment,rage of anger.
many questions of "why?" , waiting for me to search.
too tired.. but the truth has yet to come.
told to reset, fingers too weak to press the button.
wanting to know whats ahead, yet eyes blurred with tears.
the thought of persevering seemed like a tap,
switch it on and emotions flow.
at the back of my mind,something seemed to be running away.
i called it back,but u it was too prideful and fearful to stop runnung.
help lent its hand, rejected it once, admitted i need.
no longer lost, i was being led.
on top of the tree was i, above the tree was the sky,
God is there.

the room filled with sniffing, none locked her emotions
secrets meant to be kept and locked tightly in that box called fear,
poured out without self-consciousness.
hurts? hard-feelings?
shall stay just for awhile.
when the door opens, hearts shall open.
feelings were told,
they appeared in my mind before.
nothing was done, hearts were hardened.
guilt, regret.
stupid feelings i had.
mind filled with nothingness, and nothingness brought along gratefulness.
answer was soon revealed,
Fear it is.

that cunning voice said
compare and see, far from good you are.
that gentle voice reminded,
not all things you can do.
what's ahead?
much letting go.
for the fear that gripped our legs
ran in cowardice in authority of heaven.
whats next?
much kneeling down,much working hard,much fearless.

Fearlessness, claimed back.

FEARLESS CENTRAL A!!

my gosh, sound so solemn..haha
but dont you sense victory?
maybe now not yet..
coming soon.
cause someone picked up our collar for us and with us.
thanx daniel.

i want to make a promise to take good care of my spiritual life..
above all else, pay the most attention to it.
simply because its a joy, a way of life, and a responsibility.
if i dont take good care, others suffer.

had alot more to write..but forget already..haha
so i shall go do maths and pack my file for the week..
and spend a good time with dad.=)

my soul is restored
my heart is renewed
theres no greater joy Lord,
than being with you.

Soared at 2/04/2007 09:39:00 PM