Sunday, February 18, 2007
when it seemed like all's messed up by me,
when it felt as if theres no way out,
He came and rescued me.
He just lifted His fingers, and everything's settled.
everything came so so timely...
a word of assurance"
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."a reminder:
as high as the heavens, are above the earth
so high are your ways above mine
ways so perfect
they never fail me
i know you are good all the time.
and through the storms, YET i will praise you
despite it all, YET i will sing
through good or bad
YET i will worship
for you remain the same, king of kings.
[when there seems to be no way, u made it possible]
a leader who offered help..
He knew exactly what i needed.
yet there were much thoughts of self-disappointment, much blame upon myself, much disgust at the way i run away from things..
it was hard, drawing a balance,
between being merciful to myself, and taking the responsibilities that i should.
was it another test of pride? or learning not to be too hard on myself?
the creator knows, and we'll go through it together..
may:"be still n know who God really is."
yeah, perhaps i really got to make this right.
love this kind of holidays...
a time to renew and start afresh.
thanx for the many many second chances.
ting:" learn and grow from this experience"
yeah i guess thats the right way to look at it.=)
besides this, i made a discovery about myself on friday..
being a melancholic who has extreme emotions,
my form of escapism is being all high n crappy..
especially when there are people around me, most of the times non-christians..
when there are things troubling me,
things waiting for me to settle,
and things i hate to face,
i'll resort to senseless laughter,
loud, and oblivious to image.
in church, i guess it's different,
no matter how much i try to hide,
people somehow see through my mask,
and slowly, im not so prone to hiding, but on the other hand, learning to not let my emotions affect others..
read a book, that says maturity comes when you dont show your anger,even if you're angry, do it secretly.
i guess whatever the emotion, i got to learn to express them wisely.
some things that are worth remembering...
all thanx to fangxuan, we get to play with the tractor!

this is my clique in school, me, ceci, sue sue, seili, whom im really thankful for.
we share our joy, stress sorrow and above all, food. jieying said that whenever she's with us, she feels as if shes having picnic. haha
though after school we are all busy with our own things, i really enjoy being with all of u during school. laughing at stupid things, encouraging and motivating one another,going to secret places with best friend,eating seili's "self-baked-everyone-say-not-nice-only-we-say-nice"pineapple tarts,and gobble ceci's very nice cookies... people may call us clique-ish, anti-social, but oh well..*shrugs*
exclusive for best friends!=)
then it was valentines day! every year's single but this year is special cause i donated blood!=)
i thought i was strong and can donate double portion..haha but apparently i overestimated myself, just one bag was of such difficulty..
but somehow i felt guilty that i didnt go with a mindset to really help people, but wanting to experience new things..helping people is a bonus..
and it was sad that my parents arent very supportive of me doing this..=(

another thing was this valentines gift from elena n fel..
its a new kind of feeling having two extra living things in my room fighting for oxygen with me..
i decided to name them by my two good friends
sleepy and hungry..haha
sleepy is the orange one on the left, she hardly moves..always at the same place..but the thing is she's not dead..so i assume that shes rather sleepy like me..
haha the other one is a total opposite! moves very vigorously,n very quickly! and so i assume again that she must be pretty hungry cause she exercises quite alot..=)
okay! i shall go off and do some work..
[you'll make a way, when there seems to be no way]
Soared at 2/18/2007 02:03:00 PM