Monday, March 26, 2007
[trampled and bitter,
my heart just wants to bleed and stop
believing in me...]

dont worry, im okay=)
satan really knows me very well
he knows my weaknesses
he knows my vulnerabilities..
and he shoots
again and again..

but i must bounce back strong..
not because i am strong on my own,
but i have Him to back me up..
my bouncer..
i shant share much here about the bullet he fired..
its not that serious afterall...=)

i did a personality test yesterday and my social needs were like
20%............
it looks rather pathetic..haha
like as if im a loner and wants no friends..
i guess its just that i would prefer having few very good ones
rather than being very popular among many people
after all im a rather emo person..haha

haha and gwen is like ultra funny..
she sounded like she desperately need to have a talk with me
because of some depression issue in her life..
then in the end we met up
and she ended up asking about those convictions with opp gender..

she sounded rather concerned..
like as if im gonna turn into a nun soon...
haha ..and as i explain to her i realize that actually,
if my heart really is convicted about those,
i dont actually need to list them down like these,
as if they are rules im forcing myself to follow..
if im trully convicted,
even when no one's looking
or no one knows my convictions,
my response and behaviors will be consistent .

mindset is such a powerful thing
it determines our attitude towards things
and inturn our behavior..
for a change of character,
must first start from a change in the mind..
behavior that goes against the mindset are pretensions
and they will tire us out.
note to winnie: dont just clean and polish the outside of the cup,
first clean the inside
and outside will also be clean.=)


"most people wear on their faces what is going on inside of them."
came across this in the book i was reading..
and perhaps its really like what zhengliang said,
face expressions do show that something is going through the mind.
it means when we judge,
though we do it within us,
our face betray us..

when one's genuinely concerned
the face reads empathy

when one's affected by certain words spoken by another person
the face shows a deep sense of uneasiness

what am i wearing on my face today?


haha my learning to make small things special is coming into application..
i was very moved in the morning that despite the rain
and the strong wind,
mrt trains will still make sure they send peopel off to work, to schools
just as usual.
not that it doesnt have to withstand the rain
just that it doesnt get affected..
haa yup so i was very moved..
but dont know what is the significance of this realzation though..


"those who have once tasted the goodness,
and take the word lightly,
will be easily abandoned by God."

go back to first love.

[and in your arms i find the strength,
to believe in me again.]

Soared at 3/26/2007 11:42:00 PM