Monday, April 16, 2007
tonight is such a rare night, i've run out of things to do at 11...when usually i would be rather busy rushing through work,preparetion and stuff...

went for training camp for slo,
and we learnt to acknowledge people for what they've done, or simply who they are..
and it made me think about what are the things people say of me that'll make me happy?
of course anything nice would make me rather happy,
but there are qualities in us that people dont see on the surface,
and different from what people would usually say about me,
and takes someone who's really observant to spot that in my life,
and that acknowledgement would usually weigh more than the others.

this quality in me changes according to my different life experiences,
at different stage of my life,
and of course different growth points that when people recognize it,
i feel elated...

what's one of your quality that would make u feel good when poeple recognize it in your life?=)

i guess it takes more than just looking at the person to be able to spot qualities hidden behind someone's speech, and behavior,
it takes a heart that genuinely thinks highly of others,
observes deeper than just the surface,
and listens to more than whats being shared.
if theres such a gift, i think daniel has it in him..
and i ask for a heart like this,
that acknowledgement would flow
that im no longer eager to be affirmed,
but eager to affirm.

how we see others is determined by who we are.
if we think someone is trustworthy, we are trustworthy ourselves,
to be able to see that in that person...
we only see what we know, and it takes one to know one=)

had a rather radical haircut,
and others seem to be getting the aftermath of it more than i do..
haha
it was interesting taking note of all the different types of comments
and laughing them off..
it has gained me certain degree of attention,
haha so if one day u suddenly feel unloved and need attention,
consider having a radical haircut that make u look like you're 12.

but other than all those laughing and making fun,
it feels good to be put into situations that God would show me i've grown.
those words are now simply passing comments,
no matter how my hair change,
im still winnie,
used to be so concerned of what people would say,
being defined by those comments
when they say i look like mushroom,
i would probably believe that im really a mushroom,
and would be conscious if people are laughing at me,
looking at me with some weird smile,
and perhaps wont dare to step out of the room..

haha but thats the past,
and when im put into the same situation,
God showed me that i've indeed grown.
no longer will such comments affect me,
no longer will they define how i view myself,
but taking delight in having a lighter head,
in looking more like my mum,
in knowing that my hair dont define who i am.

thank you for teaching me such a thing through such a fruity/mushroomy hair.=)



had a great time talking to calean,
realizing that we're actually very similar..
in our attitude towards relationships in our lives.

being task-oriented,
relationships tend to weigh lighter compared to the task we have on hand.
we would be enjoy and value personal space and time very much,
building up relationship becomes a very conscious thing,
and accepting friendliness became very cousious as well.
it would be easy for us to distinguish between best friends, good friends,aquaintances and hi-bye friends..
the lines are clear
and in our efforts to build any friendships in our lives,
there's a purpose attached, we know why we're giving ourselves into relationships,
and rarely putting in effort for nothing.

though this is how we're made,
we're come to a consenses that its important to build friendships in our lives.
after all, our lives are all about relating,
our service in ministry,
our dreams for the future,
our whole lifetime,
revolve around people.
what we need to learn is to advance the kingdom by influencing people,
and influencing takes sincere and genuine relationships.

learning to be genuine in building relationships in my life.

thank you for this fulfilling and exciting walk,
of discovering you and myself
mould me,
and use me.

thank you.

Soared at 4/16/2007 11:17:00 PM