let me soar.

Proverbs 31:29
"many women do noble things,
but you,winnie,surpass them all."
-this,i'm living for.

Monday, July 02, 2007

now, i have many many stones in my hand,
i can use them to build walls,
or build bridges.

i've used up way to many stones,
to build secure walls around my heart.

time to break down those walls and start working on bridges.

why must everything be done with a "why"?
before i put in effort in anything,
i ask "why?"
until and unless i find the answer,
i cant give my everything.

so, why do i serve God?
that i know, deep and clear, to fulfil the calling, so accomplish the task.
then, why do i build friendships?
i just learnt, life is all about relationships.

how well have i related with God?
how well have i related with my family?
how well have i related with friends?

i wonder if i dig into the deepest recesses of my heart,
how many friends have i allowed to stay there?
one? two? zero?

perhaps i tried too hard to be different,
i thought i would live very well just having me and myself,
i thought i enjoyed being difficult to reach,
i thought building friendships because i need them was being selfish.

just like how i broke down those walls to let God come in,
i guess its time to open the door to my heart,
and invite friends in, to be a part of my life.

i wonder if they would want to?
i wonder if they are like me, longing to be part of another life?
i wonder if they got tired knocking on my door for so long and received no answer.
i wonder if they've already given up.....

i dont know if i know how to build bridges to your heart,
i dont know if i can start building friendship without having any agenda attached,
i dont know if i know how to offer more than what i thought the world would accept.

i just know, i want to tear those walls down.

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!

Also, if two lie down together,
they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
[ecclesiates 9-12]

will you help me build those bridges,
to reach out,
and to allow people to walk in?

God: winnie winnie, remember our pact?
winnie: yes God, i remember.

Soared at 7/02/2007 11:02:00 PM

winnie cheng azaniah=)
280488
onionzheng@hotmail.com

yo guys!my promise to you:
1.i promise to make your growth my goal, and relate to you with sincerity and purity.
2.i promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.
3.i promise to not be emotionally dependent on you but be honest and open in sharing with you about my life.
4.i promise to not feel jealous that you are closer to other girls than to me,and i will not try to intentionally make myself special to you/
make you like me despite my desire to feel valued and special to someone.
5.i promise to put God in the center of our friendship,i will not try to leave you a good impression of me by holding back from speaking up when i see your life off track.
i want you to love God more not love me more.
6.i promise to not give any misleading signs(though i'm not really capable of giving=p).
7.i promise to humbly receive help when you are being the gentleman God has called you to be, but also to be responsible to carry my own load and not take advantage in any way.
8.i promise to be a life-long learner so that conversations with me may add value to you in any small little ways possible.
9.i promise to not flirt with you in any way(if im ever capable to),whether is it laughing at unfunny jokes,or paying special attention to you making you think that i like you.
10.lastly, i promise to not expect you to be exactly like pastor willy, but learn to appreciate your own unique strengths=p
to my future husband:
am so excited to meet you!
serve God together with you and living out the love story God wrote for exclusively the both of us.
but before this i really want to give the best of myself to God and His kingdom,
realizing the dreams that He has put into my heart
and to be moulded to become who He promised He'll make me to be.
i know you too will be excited to meet a winnie that God smiles at wide wide
i promise to keep developing myself,so that i'll present to you nothing but the best of me when we meet
so for now,i put this aside and continue sprinting in this race
and keep learning to unveil the beauty God has called me to unveil
till then,
see you.
=)

credits for the layout
(c) 2006 EMILY.