Saturday, October 13, 2007
sometimes when i'm all alone,
when i walk along the pavement,
a tinge of fear would sink into my heart.
what if theres something else to learn?
what if it's not yet time to shine?

i asked Him to search through my heart,
open my eyes to the deepest things within me,
not shown to myself,
not shown to others,
im afraid,
i havent stepped out of that comfort completely.

perhaps,
it just means its another level of growth,
breakfree from the unconscious struggle of the mind,
take that risk in trusting in the ever faithful,
just like i needa take risks in friendships.

i dont exactly know the end,
i only know i dont know how to manage it any better.

"go winnie,
i know this is what you have prayed for.
it's in times like these that you struggle powerfully.
its in times like these you give all of yourself without reservation,
you've been telling yourself,
keep sprinting, keep fixing your eyes on the finishing line.
as much as your experiences shaped you to be who you are,
let the word shape you to be who you'll be."

let me,
take that risk.

Soared at 10/13/2007 11:13:00 PM