Sunday, July 06, 2008
everything made so much sense again,
God is so real,
the vision is so real,
what it requires of me is so real.

come on winnie,
come to terms with it,
you've got to keep your heart fiery hot,
you've got to keep burning,
you know satan will slow you down,
and if it takes every ounce of your energy to keep yourself burning,
jolly well do it.

been having sleepless nights,
lie on the bed and cannot go to sleep.
i wonder if those are God's ways to book some real private time with me.
so when i cant sleep,
i talk to the hot hunk above,
and im not sure if its Him or myself,
many thoughts would drop into my heart.

i started to think about the many young gals and guys
who said that they are ready for a relationship.
i cant help but think maybe i'm rather immature.
up till this moment,
this second,
i can honestly say that i'm really really not ready for any of these sorts.
i know that if it comes,
my life will be consumed by it,

i do have desires to be special to somebody,
come on, admit it,
who dont?
but along the years,
i filled the desire with other great things.
God's love,
biblical friendships,
serving God.
and its just so amazing how God loves me so personally and just especially for me.
say i'm suaku,
say i'm a nun,
i choose to wait for His best =) *shrugs*

if my soft-like-tofu heart is the key for God to keep using me,
the thing that'll help me give my very best into every single responsibility given,
and a reminder for me to keep depending on Him,
let me keep that.
as a result i might appear loser to be sincere about every small role,
im not able to respond humorously to things,
and people may say im too innocent.
oh wells *shrugs*
i wanna remain easy-going with God.
cause anything other than Him and people He loves,
i don't care.
(i pray i'm as serious about it as i sound)

my bloggy is about me and myself again,
always believed private victory will lead to public victory.
perhaps its a matter of the motives again..
honestly its not that my whole life i only care about motives,
i only know that God will not bless wrong motives.
but no point either, to be so stubborn with motives
and do nothing in life,
thats just as good as having tight security on the safety box with nothing of value inside.

"integrity is doing what i said i would do,
how i said i would do,
when i said i would do."
woman of integrity=woman of my words....?
*pondering*

Soared at 7/06/2008 02:46:00 AM