Monday, September 22, 2008
i havent been to my blog for so long that it no longer have auto-completion of the website
i had to type onions-and-more-onions..=tedious
and in my mind i will imagine a mountain of onions come tumbling down towards me..
a chill down the spine~

i nearly forgot the password to sign in.

becoming closer to God=becoming more like winnie
yes, i am a perfectionist
yes, i am systematic
yes, i am reflective
yes, i am an introvert
yes, i am a listener
yes, i am phlegmatic
yes, i am an observer
yes, i like to watch tv and read comics
yes, i am lazy
and yes, i am unspiritual.

thats what God made me to be=thats what make me beautiful.


i hope?=)


oh, yes, i AM beautiful.

i've been learning how to love.
this puny brain of mine had some revelation.
the great commission starts with love and its all about love.
such deep insight isnt it?
and learning it require me to tear down all my defences,
to be completely vulnerable,
to dare to read about news that i know would cut my heart deeply,
with pain, anguish, empathy and sadness.
we too,
can have love wide as the sky..
cause our hearts are filled with love more huge than the universe.
love, is never about i.
theres no 'I' in 'love' anyway.

my backpack got stolen=God is good.
just like Italy has the best pizzas,
NUS has the most ridiculous happenings.
while patting my head for my own stupidity to trust in humanity,
never a moment i doubted God's goodness,
never a moment i doubted God's control.
perhaps someone needed to see His reality through my loss,
perhaps it'll go a round of touring before it comes back to me,
perhaps, i'll never get it back..
the peace within is so assuring it allows no room for complains or panic.

God is good all the time.

i read Mr Hong Teck's blog
i fell in love.....
with his blog...
before i knew how he looks like~
i love his passion for what kids can do for God in the future,
i love his simplicity,
i love his concise and sharp reflections.
i love his love for his wife.. (he told his wife "i've lived my best life because of you"! awww~)
i love his not-meant-to-laugh-out-loud humour
(he said one of the ways to be cool is to not be shocked or surprised by anything,well, at least dont look like you do.)
i love it when i come across a point of reflection that i can identify with,
i just feel like tearing.
indeed,
just remain simple and God's future for us will be not so simple.

i've been reading "nurture" by Lisa Bevere

"envy is a symptom of lack of appreciation of our
own uniqueness and self worth. Each of us has
something to give that no one else has."
- Elizabeth O' Connor

"i have very strong opinions, but i also have a lot of influence,
so i have to be careful"

"if i made the conflict personal,
there would be no true or lasting solution"

"the trick is walking away from your time of prayer
believing the answer is yours when in that moment
you did not hear a thing."

"intuition- it is not about an exercise of human self-actualization,
but a connection with the divine and holy one"

"go the distance-be strong, free, and unafraid"

i want to expand my heart and mind,
to offer life and love,
to fellow princesses of the king.
love each one from the inside,
believing that surely each shell contains a pearl.
even when they fail and disappoint,
just keep believing.

My bag was found=God really is good
working in ways i often do not understand,
God never ever fails.
i know that with all the things going on between me and Him
the past few days,
the outcome is just like running 2.4 and expecting to finish it.
God loves in such a personal way,
others would never understand.
sometimes, its enough to just smile in my heart and know,
all is well.

At this moment i am feeling a bit sad.
ketchup is not equals to license.
i want to keep believing,
i really want to.

i shall not dwell on it.

Soared at 9/22/2008 08:50:00 PM